Colour My World

2008-08-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO! I SHIFTED!!

http://evantanying.livejournal.com

2008-08-23T23:20:00.008+08:00

FIREWORKS WAS GREAT! =D REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD!! =)
Haha. before it started I was feeling quite sian. When it all started, I just smiled to myself. So naturally amused by the amazing display of fireworks. It was right before my eyes. bursting in front of me. IT WAS AWESOME. Simply great. =D

My day started really early. Got up and showered and packed and left my house with my family to have breakfast with them. And then left to the national library to study. Haha. Study lounge was so crowded! lol. And then it was meeting brandon to go to the photo shop to get my first film developed! =D Didn't turn out too well though. But i'm happy to see at least some nice shots! =D

Then sat at mos burger at bugis to study. =) After that, went back to collect the photos and then walked super far down to meet kai wen and brenda! =D LOVES. Haha. Was fun chatting with you people! =D

2008-08-18T21:30:00.007+08:00

busy busy. Study week and yet there's so much going on. Had to go to school early today to do some photo shoot for school of IIT (I thought to myself school, but I typed church, like ouh.) and so I though it would only take us an hour to complete the shoot. No....I was so wrong. It took slightly more than two hours! Within the first few minutes, I took out my laptop to do some last minute work for prsp submission after the shoot. Then after all that, I went to a lab to print submission work and headed off to the lounge to look for claire and ruth. =) Was hungry so went to biz park with giddy (my new found friend) to packet some food back into the lounge. And my oh my, giddy and I saw something that told us never to eat from that stall again. Come and ask me if you REALLY wanna know. =) Haha. Alright, from there, I went to meet Brandon to get my new love, ROBOT 3!!! LOMO IS LOVE! =D My new baby!

After that went for prsp interview, nearly died a horrible death! And after that, went to the lounge again. Then followed giddy, kah yuen and brandon to the design lounge opening and then to biz park to meet ryan and went off to parkway to meet my parents and then dinner-ed and headed home.

This is just today. Sounds like a whole bunch of things eh?

Mum and Dad

This was saturday when I dished out my phone to take a photo of the drinking glass, then dad got caught in it and the picture was nice. Then mum went, "Take me too!". Boy, was I shocked. That coming from my mum?? Haha.

More pictures!!!

2008-08-18T21:22:00.001+08:00

So I thought, "some images would be nice." LOMO LOVE. =D

2008-08-14T20:00:00.003+08:00

been awhile again.

I'm struggling with the change of course thing. Not being able to do what you like is really tough. Especially when you don't know what you can do after that. Maybe this is where I've been placed by Him. But now its yes which I hear from others to change my course. Hoping this is what you're saying to me and not what I'm hearing cause I want it this way. If it is Your will, I pray, You make things fall into place.

don't leave me hanging, 'cause it ain't looking good from up here.

as for everything else, I just want it to be all neutral, don't make me sway. I don't know anymore, how to be stopping myself from saying yes when I know, I just know, its not meant to be.

I'm happy, whatever happens, don't worry 'cause I know, yes I do know. He's there. I mean God.

=D

Cheers to all.

Have fun like I do, no matter how things never look so bright when you first entered this world.

LOVES.

2008-08-07T00:18:00.001+08:00

forbidden.

When you know what's wrong, you can't and shouldn't do it.

You take too long and you cause more than you thought you would.

It'll never be the same.

For what's held back, don't think you'll ever understand.

Its the last good bye.

Something's just can never be.

That's forbidden.

That's what I mean.

*you don't know how long I've been holding the tears back.

2008-08-05T19:42:00.003+08:00

I should've said so earlier.
I'm no longer me, no longer that strong.
blame me, I'll take it all.
I'll feel better that way.

Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of me.
Remember, He is with me ALWAYS.

2008-08-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

At my aunt's place. What's new?

Wootss. projects. presentations. with pol-ite over. there's supposed to be more time. RIGHT?

Ayes, you never know what someone else is thinking.

Have fun all, its national day week. =)

LOVES.

2008-07-31T00:27:00.002+08:00

woots! haven't updated in a LONG time! haha.

EVENT-FULL Day man. Had class till 4 then went to the lounge to do some work and lounge duty, then went to meet CADOR people and cam-whored and then rushed off the get slippers then off to musical practise! haha. FULL eh? Got home at like 11.

I'm hoping that nothing too bad is happening. Seriously. Really.

EVAN loves her family loads.

Tmr will be another day. I'm drying out fast from having so much training I think. And test are coming and projects are gonna be due. ALL THE WAY EVAN AND C197!!!!!!! =D

TAKE CARE ALL. LOVESSSSSS <3

2008-07-20T19:22:00.002+08:00

Projects!!!
Hopefully everyone is gonna be on time in handing in and did the right thing.
PPL, CARC IS DUE 9AM TMR!!!!!!!

D, i'm sorry. Really.

I wanna bring my friends to my church to hear me sing. Anyone?? =)

I wanna move on and not think so much about what should or could happen, 'cause I should be relying on You.

Help me please.

LOVES ALL =)

2008-07-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

Ayes, I'm really sorry to someone.

I'm sorry D, cause you've been nice.
Just so bad I turned away.
Leaving you behind.
Its gonna be tough to be friends anymore.
My bad again.
I'm bad at this.
Handled it all wrong.
And I hope you forgive me,
that we can continue to be friends.
Hope you see this post.

Sighs.

2008-07-18T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'll listen to you, not reply.
I'll be the bad one.
Its my bad.
Now move on.
I'm sorry.

Feeling so tired and drained, talk about the class, hockey, my own life. Luan.
Now I know myself for wanting to be selfish. Holding on to you.
I shouldn't be doing all this.
I'm gonna forget.

2008-07-18T07:44:00.002+08:00

Had quite some fun yesterday, played pool and watched the guys play foosball in the lounge.
TPSU subcomm results are gonna be out TODAY, so peeps, go check your mail! =)

Don't know if I've gotten into the hocks team or not. Its quite bad 'cause we'll only know if we've gotten into the team a day before Pol-ite starts, which also means its quite unfair for those who don't get in after going for every training. Sad eh? Oh well, blame it on Pol-ite starting so early.

Projects projects. Gonna be heading to school early to do my project that's due on monday with a presentation to do. SCARY. Its gonna be the first presentation that we gotta do. And oh boy, my group's trying damn hard already. Okay, and there's one more project too. With a presentation to do as well. Haha. Great.

I'm sitting here. Waiting to see what will happen next.

*thanks to you I feel my life's a mess*

2008-07-16T23:47:00.003+08:00

=)

To Em: Thanks babe. I'll be so you'd better be too! =D

To JY: Whatever la. I like CADOR, you like Lucan, full stop. =D

To the world out there: There ain't nothing called not having time, its just about your management and committment to whatever it is. Think about it.

Take what I say for what I mean. Its plain and simple. Easy.

Hold on because the rollercoaster of evan's life is about to begin with busy schedules. =D

LOVES!

2008-07-15T10:38:00.002+08:00

:) plain and simple, nothing much on the surface but all deep down. Silently not saying anything, but its all there. Maybe. Just maybe, people know.

Its guess what I'm talking about day, not direct. I'm beating about the bush. =)

TPSU subcomm camp was good, waiting for confirmation. CADOR is cool.

haha. FUN STUFF, people should go for good camps.

Long day, have fun all. =D

2008-07-10T15:20:00.006+08:00

When there's time for something, and there's nothing much to do or want to do, what happens will be this!

There's more. just that I don't really wanna put more up. This was tuesday, there's more from today. Haha.

Long way more, still have WDS and then there's training and I'm sleepy!

No worries, I'll keep myself awake by all means. Lol.

Have fun! =D

2008-07-07T21:39:00.001+08:00

I'm an idiot.
Dumb 'ol me.

2008-07-06T20:59:00.001+08:00

Its a fresh new look.
I can't help but say how stupid this is, I've gotta stop wishing about anything. Really anything and everything. Literally. No more for this nonsense.
Don't hope no more. I'll just be disappointed. No more hopes for things to happen.

I stay awake thinking I don't know why, but I won't no more cuz it just brings much more to my mind.

EVAN WILL REMAIN HAPPY. =D

2008-07-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

okay, one not so good day on saturday but it ended fine. Then today was youth sunday. In church since 8 am, had to do a lot of stuff. But it was fine. =)

Nothing much really. Just projects and more projects.

you're an ass. seriously shouldn't have.

2008-07-04T08:15:00.001+08:00

Feast your eyes a little. =)

This and the next one is in hk with the family.

This one's the day we celebrated Vanda's Birthday! =)

On the way back after the church camp! With em!

Retro man! Marianne!

Zu hao, kim!

Haven't really put up any photos, so just decided to put some in. Haha. =)

2008-07-04T08:05:00.000+08:00

Alright. Yesterday was, tiring. Went to school early to do prsp with Jian Yu. THANKS JIAN YU!!! =D Well, I passed my C math with a B again. At least I passed! =) Thank God eh? Its only the beginning so I'm hoping to get whatever I'm learning better. Lazy me is trying. =) And so, today there's no school but there's work to be done. Kinda trying to get myself going now. Its 8.15am now. Gotta get out of the house later to make sure I meet ah Jian to get prsp done again. Then after that its to get church stiff done. Then I hope to find someone to go out with me or something. Haha. Relax you know? After a day of work? =)

There's nothing much to say really. Other than no wishing or waiting anymore.

Take care all!

LOVESSSS!!!

2008-07-03T08:03:00.000+08:00

the day didn't end all so well. failed my CARC by just 2 marks.
Disappointed really. The worse is that we got blamed that we didn't study. In which, I strongly beg to differ. I did study, just that when I don't understand what I'm studying, I don't seem to get what the question is asking. Think a lot of people are like that too. And we're not to be blamed upon for not studying when we really did. Sigh. I'll keep trying because I know I should and must.

And of course not feel bad anymore about whatever the teacher said.

Today's gonna be a long day with class and whatever I need to do with the projects and hocks.

Hopefully fun overall.

Oh and C math results later.

LOVES. =D

2008-07-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

Miracles do happen. Maybe not a real real miracle la.
Okay, maybe more of a suprise. =)
I not only passed my PRSP, i got a B+.
Expected a mediocre pass or something.
Not bad really.
Haha.

I think I'm all over.
Getting back on track.
Real slow.
With not much difficulty anymore.
Loves all.

Have fun! =)

2008-07-01T15:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing I can say.

Other than believing what I can't say I know.

2008-06-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

You should be doing what's best for yourself.

Want the company? Just open your mouth and be forth coming about it.

Don't you dare say anything about anyone if you're doing it yourself.

Enough said.

2008-06-30T06:59:00.000+08:00

I'm now the official plaster queen. Have cuts on my fingers and blisters on the back of my feet. So terrible. Its mad. I use so many plasters. And now I'm left with none. Gonna have to go buy some more later.

This week is gonna be mad, with hocks and projects and other activities, I roughly have no time to do almost anything 'cause I'll be too tired. When it hits thursday, its just one more week to Poly-ite. Before that even begins, I've got projects to submit. Its not a good sign. That's 'cause its the time that I'm feeling tired and dried out. Well, I'm hoping that things move fast and things get done fast.

School's on and I'm drowning out.

LOVES ALL. HAVE A NICE DAY!

2008-06-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

At the national lib. Did research. Kinda taking a break. Good progress I make, I feel. Lol. Though I'm only at my first project and still at the beginning of it. Haha. =)

Well, saw a pic. Think I shouldn't have. Knowing what I'd expect. Just couldn't stop though. Forget it already. Should be focusing on what's the present and what is now than to let this disrupt things, over and over again.

Once again, I'd like to super emphasise that communications are a MUST to want to connect to a person or know more about a person. SENSITIVITY also! You never know if you're being irritating. Watch that. Its really really really important. =D

Not saying this to any particular person but anyone and everyone!

Back to work!

Have fun! =D

I might be back later!

2008-06-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

All the talk. Getting tired. Communication skills of some do get on my nerves. Can't be direct. But I hope the point is taken. HINT HINT. Its important to know what to say at what time. How to go about talking about the issue instead of beating about the bush. Especially when someone is tired. Gets on the nerves really.

I had a long day. Although things are supposedly supposed to be slacky. Class getting sick and I'm feeling it. But thanks to hockey for all the exercise think I can hold this, sick thing going around, back. Only left with 6 trainings to the first match. Is really short. Scary when you've got no experience. Even though you've played in a few friendly's.

I can't seem to get a hold on what's going on. But I guess one thing I should just be glad about is that I'm surviving. Living my christian life. Thank God. In anything and everything eh? =D

Tmr I'm gonna be studying with my mates, trying to get a headstart on my projects that are due in way less than 2 weeks. Sounds good huh. Have fun luh!

HAHA!

Night all! =)

2008-06-26T07:51:00.000+08:00

Early morning.

I'm wondering how to start on all my projects when I'm just so lazy and aching all over. Hmmm, I will la. As soon as I can get my butt out of my bed and my lappy out into the living room and get all the paper that I need out also. Sounds tough. Lol.

I'd very much like to have you to talk to me.

2008-06-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

3 weeks going a month. time flies. I think I'm grappling back on to my life. To who I am and am to be.

I was dying to what I thought was happening. Guess I was wrong. I'm still alive and kicking.

Out with the mates from class at bras basah macs. However its spelt.

I thank God for sending you all to save me from dropping into a endless hole.

I still think about those times.

Can't say that I hope anymore.

Have fun all.

Its gonna be busy weeks ahead for me. With projects and all.

LOVES ALL. =D

2008-06-22T16:06:00.000+08:00

How I wish I could just throw everything down and run away.

Just for a minute. No, just a second.

And I think all will be better.

2008-06-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Quite a day. Hockey then lunch then to filming then to dinner then back home. Got called a bitch for I have no idea what reason. Bad experience, from someone who doesn't even know me for me. Shouldn't dwell on it. Think I'll clarify. Good night. Evan's mood is seriously bad.

2008-06-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

What a day. Nothing much going on. Other than the 'ol EVAN who has many many thoughts and self reflection over and over again. So deeply madly before isn't what there is now. How crappy. Man, I just wish I knew how to pity myself for getting into these kind of stuff. But guess its more of how are you gonna get out of this with not much pain. I'm a quarter way there. I think. Not all that bright. Or maybe grim more that anything else really. No translation, whatsoever. Yeah.

Okay nonsense me is not feeling all that good. I can no longer see something that makes me think back. Oh man. How easy can that be?

Alright alright, waking up from all the nightmares to realise that school's starting in like 3 days but I've not done much for projects and assignments due in a few weeks. Oh no right. Yeah. OH NO.

TRY YOUR UTMOST BEST NOW NOT TO ENJOY BUT TO FINISH UP ON ALL YOUR WORK. BE GOOD, DON'T MAKE YOUR MUM GO AFTER YOU TO DO YOUR WORK!!! =D

2008-06-19T09:52:00.000+08:00

I asked for it on tuesday, and it came right that night. The sign was that its over and its time to get on without ever hoping that it'll come back. Think that's all I need. Hard. But if not this EVAN can't be herself for a long time. Maybe even lose herself. Its over. And so I said so long on tuesday. Which actually marked 2 weeks from tht dreadful day.

Back to reality, as what would be said. Went to get my hockey stuff, turf shoes, socks and shin guards. Met Hui ying first then got a bite at subways and then headed to penin to get the stuff. Quite good I must say, there was a discount going on in the store so things were much cheaper. Got RED turf shoes and I'm super happy about that 'cause I seriously love red. Its not bright red of course. I like DEEP RED. And the shoes were deep red. Cool eh? Sad to say they were quite limited on the shin guards and so the shin guards are yellow. And they'll be covered with socks any way. So I didn't really bother. =D Bought everything and thought it come close to a hundred bucks but it was $64 dollars which was shocking. Haha. Okay, not really la. Its only 'cause I didn't think that there was a sale going on. And sticks were half price la. So tempted to get but I didn't have money. =(

After that Hui ying went off to meet her friend. So I rushed to Marina Square to meet Em and Maxim to catch Get Smart. Super lame show. GO WATCH IF YOU NEED A GOOD LAUGH. Seriously recommended! But if you wanna catch some good action show then don't catch this man. 'Cause you'll be seriously disappointed. haha. A

My whole day was going from place to place man. Quite crazy. After the show, walked a lil with Em and Max. After just a short while, I had to go off to True Way Pres, for a musical called the Promise, rehearsal. Am acting and singing in it. And this saturday there's a shooting session for the promotional video. So last rehearsal for the video and then its off to shooting for it. Had to make sure I get the lines right and come in at the right time. Like so weird. Its so much easier to remember the words of a song than to remember lines itself.

Yeah. Had a good chat with Jamie, who is acting in the promise as well. Was a good one 'cause we learnt about each other's ministry's and tried helping one another in out problems. =) Got home and tried on the shin guards 'cause they didn't allow me to at the shop. And my goodness its so warm, wearing shin guards and socks and shoes. No wonder seniors don't wear it all the time. Bearing in mind that I wasn't even running in the hot sun. I was just home trying it on. Yeah anyway, since I perspired a little, I decided to do 10 mins of exercise on the machine I have at home. Showered then slept.

Today's gonna be slacky, after I'm done with blogging and emails, I'm gonna get ready to go out to my secondary school to collect my O level cert. =) Till tonight or tmr! =D

2008-06-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

EVER WONDER.....

Don't you ever think about things like that? Or maybe I do. A lot.

Had hockey from 3 to 6 today, left earlier due to a curfew. And so, I took a walk from school to a bus stop not so near to school. Wanted to think a little. So ended up thinking about questions of how my life can change and so on. Found myself looking around, enjoying God's creation and creations of which He inspired man to do. And saw a beautiful sky. Took some photos so enjoy. =) And also found myself singing "What Can I Do" by Paul Baloche.

Hopefully, I'll be able to accept all that God gives to me as I asked for. I asked some questions, whiles walking and I do really hope and pray that all that God has planned will happen. Shall be more specific in what I'm asking too. =) Well, I trust that if you really beelieve, what you ask for will materialise.

I'm thinking a lot nowadays. Unlike the past where even what I say doesn't process in my mind. Well, I am really hopeless in thinking about the future though, because it doesn't seem to be coming through as I thought of last time. I'm holding myself back from a lot. And seems that things aren't changing as I'm growing. Okay this is really abstract. Don't bother to guess. If you ever do. =)

Enjoy the last few days of the holidays people! And don't just keep eating! Remember to exercise too! =D

LOADS OF LOVE!!!

2008-06-15T18:18:00.000+08:00

And so, THE EVANS is back to normal or maybe abnormal to some of you because you like to make fun of me. Oh well, I'll let you all tease me if it makes your day. Alright, just a little something to tell those who are reading my blog but are not saying a word. Haha.

This EVAN here, serves in many many areas, in church, I serve as a worship leader, a support singer for worship, pastor's daughter, group leader, mentor and prayer committee i/c. And so in school, I'm a hockey player and a student. As for other responsibilities in school, I should think they will come up soon.

Complicated as things may seem, this EVAN has gotten used to it. Its hard to understand maybe to some of you. But it's become a norm for me. Any problems I put on this blog is all a good experience to be learning from. This especially goes out to all the young ones in my youth group because there's a link from our youth blog to my blog. =)

And so, I do hope that you understand as well that through all the problems I may seem to have orr indirectly point to, know that this EVAN is fine alright? I'm strong enough to handle these things. But of course, if I ever need help, I do know who to turn to first, of course God then to others older than I am.

Have fun and enjoy reading this blog. But of course if anyone who dislikes me gets a hold on this blog address I guess its up to you to spam but do watch your language yeah? haha. This sounds a little mad. Oh well, things do happen right? =)

Today's been good though I've been thinking quite a bit. May not sound good because thinking sometimes sounds bad rather than good. But I think I've made a improvement in that and I'm so not gonna be thinking negatively I hope. =D

Alright people! Have a good day! Its one more week of the holidays before school starts again! Enjoy while you can!!! =)

2008-06-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

Its been a struggling day for the brain. Having to avoid thoughts that will 'cause this evan to go back into a some sort of stupid train of thoughts. I'll be fighting till I can make myself stop completely. Probably a new focus. Mmm...sounds good, new focus. Haha. Oh well, its good enough that I've got friends who are willing to lend a ear and a shoulder when needed. Sweet people of EVAN'S life, THANK YOU SO MUCH! =D

And its all new, all over again.

Have fun all, its the last week of the hols starting soon. Enjoy while you can, as for dear JC people, study hard! Its all the time you have left. =)

Good night!

2008-06-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

Back.

5 days of running around the hotel and melaka, 4 nights of card games and noise and chats.

Its been tiring, leading worship, leading a group of young ones, hoping that everything goes on smoothly, thinking about my life and what I need to revive and survive on instead of what I'm relying on to now.

Many many many things, hard to clear up, hard to understand. I'm still hoping on something. But I think its fading in some way. I don't know what you're thinking. So i'm not assuming, all I'm doing is waiting for you to tell me. I'm still being positive. Not gonna be all so negative and make my life so miserable. =)

And so the messages struck me one after another. There I'm thinking, how come things always fall into place when we go for a trip away and there's so called time to think, reflect and do stuff to relieve so called stress. And then everything sinks back in when we get back to so called reality, 'cause this is where everything is after all.

Well, its time for the EVANS to start living out what I said I will try to do and make necessary changes.

I'm waiting for you to open that mouth of yours and say what you're thinking.

In the meantime, I'm postive. I AM FINE. =D

2008-06-06T17:11:00.000+08:00

I'm going off. In a few days, 2 days. Haven't packed, don't see that I'm excited. Piling up piling up. There's a lot to do. A lot I want to say. Can't though. Its tough. Don't wanna try explaining. Doubt I'll be posting tmr.

Have fun all. The EVANS is gonna be gone. Till then. When I'm back. It'll be thursday.

So long farewell, its time to say goodbye.
GOODBYEEEE....

you and you

2008-06-06T16:58:00.000+08:00

Its hard not to try to find someone to talk to after whats happened, its weird isn't it? How we rely on someone else. Then when that's gone, its lost lost lost all over again. Then all this builds up in you 'cause you don't feel thatt there's anyone there talking to you again.

Am I using you? If I am, then I guess its good that you left and when you get back, I won't be around either. I don't know you well, I don't think this will continue, for you, guess its just a little while before you lose that little thing you have for me. I won't be suprised yeah? I'd be guessing that you'll read this when you get back. By then, I'm not sure if we'll ever talk again. Or not. Right? I thank you for this time you're around for me, listening to me no matter how boring it gets. I don't know why you'll want to listen to all my nonsense. But its been good company. =) I called you my best friend, but I don't know if it'll last. We'll see when I get back. I'm not around by the time you come back.

And for you, I long for things to turn back. Guess its tough luck. I don't think it'll happen. Evan's gotta lose all of this in her. Its building up fast, its scary. I want, but I can't and I'm so unsure about what you're saying to me or said to me anymore. Sorry for being heartless, 'cause I think I am for giving you those 2 options. That's it.

This post. You might not get it. But maybe you would. I mean, you and you. =)

Have a nice life. I hope.

us no more

2008-06-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

Its over. Wow. So fast. And I was hoping for something long, that'll last. Guess this isn't it. I'm kinda lost in this. But no matter what i guess I'll live. I've got God who probably planned for this. And so, the EVAN is alone again, so fun. I very much wanna hold on. Oh well, you chose it. I'm losing a battle on the inside of me. Even knowing there was still us helped. Now, there isn't that word any longer. No more. Ka-pish. 0%. I'll live I will. Always been fine. Will be fine. =)

Silence

2008-06-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

There're a lot of things that silence can do. It brings many questions with it. Or even an answer you'd never think of. I'd been holding my peace and not saying anything, expecting some reply, but i guess you have to say something. I was wrong to think that anyone will react to it. Its been hard. I still hold it. Waiting, at least knowing that you're still there. Or at least that's what i think. Yup. Soon it'll be settled. Its either this or that, i think. And right here and now all I can say is that I'm waiting right here for you to tell me what you want.

And to you: I'm hoping I lead you not to any point of hurt, even if I do, I don't mean to. You'll be my source of comfort as a very good friend.

Lost

2008-06-01T21:44:00.001+08:00

I'm losing you, aren't I? I'm not the one running, you're the one running right?
And this is me waiting and trying but there's you not giving in at all, aren't I right?
Who should be worried?

I'm gonna be moving on, soon if this doesn't change and I trust that in time to come, I'll lose it because I see nothing good coming out of this. And then my heart will be broken once again. As many times as I've cried. It'll be this tough. No matter how much I love. No matter how much I felt I've given. I'll hurt. You have fun. living in your own world. I'll go find mine again. I've lost it because I lost that part of me, just for you. I'm all lost. AGAIN. When i thought this wouldn't happen.

Tired...

2008-05-31T21:59:00.000+08:00

Played hockey from 9 to 1.30 this afternoon. Friendly match with TPJC, was quite a good time for exposure, since i had no idea how the game was supposed to go. Played 3 different positions today for all 3 halves. And so the result is that my back hurts and my big toe got injured 'cause the ball came too fast. Oh well, it was fun. =) Wanted to study after having lunch with the hockey people. But I was so tired i decided to go home instead. Headed home and had a 2 hour nap but kept waking up 'cause the toe was getting swollen and hurt quite a bit. Hopefully i can sleep in peace tonight without waking up because of the toe. And so, I'm praying that no one and really NO ONE will step on my toe tmr. Especially in church since there's gonna be so many people since its only one service and there's camp briefing after the service as well. Yup, and I'm supposed to be studying. But I think that for today, i'm just gonna read through the PRSP textbook and familiarise myself with the textbook since its a open book test. Haha. Guess that'll be all for today. =) Good night!

Update of The Day

2008-05-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hey again. Its officially a not so good day. Well, didn't get through for elections, and i think humanly, with pride and all, i feel sad and uneasy. And so there goes the rest of the time to study. I didn't feel like doing any more work and all i wanted to do was sit in a corner and cry. Well, i didn't 'cause I knew that it was meant to be this way 'cause its God's plan. So yup, thanks to Dom and Xavier for talking to me, helping me prevent myself from crying and making myself feel oh so pathetic. Really thankful to have them around. At least to have people to talk to. Guess many would know what a blessing it is to have friends who are willing to chit chat no matter how the phone bill is. Right? =) Evan will smile no matter how bad things can be. =) Hockey will be my focus now, i guess. 'Cause it was either this or that. Well, all the best to those who got in. 'Cause you'll be busy. And to Melinda for getting the highest votes! =D Really suprising huh. =) So I'll end here.

I didn't call him. I didn't.

In School

2008-05-30T17:13:00.000+08:00

Its weird sitting at the concourse doing your revision alone, I just realised. Why? It's because countless number of people are looking at you because you're sitting alone, minding your own business. lol. Doesn't happen in the library though. Haha. Anyways, i'm studying in school because term tests are next week and its quite crazy 'cause if you're not a computer person studying about the computer, you don't really care how it works. lol. And in the end, you just forget all you've learn in a second. Haha. Election results are out at 6pm but i don't really care what happens 'cause I'm sure God will tell me what He wants me to do in the school be it more towards hockey or IITSC or both. Right? I do believe He'd make the decision for me. Even though the human heart would very much like a great ending that encompasses being someone "popular" or important in any role. =) And so I'm just watching and waiting to see what happens. No reason for me to get scared. I'll be holding on to God no matter what decision. =D Take care all you folks. Hope you all are doing fine. =) Evan greets have a nice evening. =)

To Revive or Not To Revive

2008-05-28T14:52:00.000+08:00

Hello...its been a lonnnngggggg time. like EONS hahahaha. mmm...to revive or not to revive, that is the question. :) Its been hectic after poly began, messing around with the classmates and joining ccas and such. Its becoming boring because class unity is breaking down. Oh well, its like that isn't it? :) mmm...actually in IISO now. So if i feel like it, i might just revive this thing. LOL.

2007-07-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

Sorry PEEPS!!

I suck at updating this blog. how terrible can that be.
Been busy with tuitions plus school homework..

and now..I'M SICK.

hahaha.

Great way to stop me huh. and amazingly, i have asthma puff too.

Cuz I've got some weezing.

okay thats all for today. I'm gonna have dinner and do some english tuition homework and lit homework too.haha.

THERE'S FAITH FACTOR TMR!!YAY!!=D

2007-07-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

evangelin --
[noun]:

A deadly strain of projectiile vomit

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

CAN YOU IMAGINE THIS IS THE MEANING OF MY NAME???!!!
There's another one and you will see a world of a difference!!!

Evangelin --
[adjective]:

Sexually stunning

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

OR THIS ONE..

EVANGELIN --
[adjective]:

Smells like teen spirit

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

WHAT NONSENSE!! HAHAHA!!!

2007-06-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking a lot recently and realised that God has blessed me tremendously, no matter how bad my day is, He gave me a cheerful spirit and allowed me to forget the unhappiness and throw away the frown. It is He who made someone like me and you so SPECIAL, you may use the word special often but you are carefully and wonderfully made.

I hope you feel the love that God has given to you and don't forget to open that tap of yours, the tap that pours out love and nothing else but genuine love and the love of God!=D

2007-06-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

MY ANSWERED PRAYERS!!

Its amazing to hear from God with all that He answers! Not long ago, before the school holidays ended, I was praying for my dear friend pearlynn, that she would be able to get to know God once again and have a heart to want to be better. The following night, I recieved a msg from her asking me for help and I asked her what could I help her with and she replied that she wanted to be a better girl and she even READ THE BIBLE! Even though it is only 5 pages but it's already SOMETHING for a non-believer! Amazing ehs? Not only did He send pearlynn back to ask me for help, I recieved a msg from my cute little girl from the odyssey camp last dec and I just recieved so much of a shock! haha!

Just recently, pearlynn became quite sick and I didn't think much of it, neither did I pray for her. Then I prayed for her one night and the next day she came back to school when she told me she wouldn't! I asked her how she was feeling and she said that she felt a lot better and there was no more fever! I can't tell you people reading how much I've seen God can do just for one little and I mean really little prayer!

Never under estimate the power of prayer and most importantly GOD'S POWER!!

2007-06-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

I have not felt this way in a long time, that feeling is just the amazing changes of life and I'm speaking about my own life. After the mission trip, its a whole new feeling to missions. How a little can become a lot, its just a wonderful feel! I only led the children's worship but its just great to be able to serve the Lord and see such curious faces all willing to learn how to do the little actions and sing the songs in english because they don't speak much english. I'll put my reflection here and you can read about it. Its really hard to explain and only till you go experience it for yourself you might never understand=)

Personally, I am really glad to have gone for this trip. Even though it might not be something big, but it has placed a new thought and a new sense of God in me. I have never gone for a mission trip before and this was the very first in my so far very short life. It was amazing to see how much a little mission can help people that much and bring about so much more help to the people giving than to the people receiving the help. As the saying goes, "It is more blessed to give than to receive". Now, I fully understand the meaning of that saying. God has shown me that no matter how much you put in to a little job that you are given, whatever the result is, you still reap something. I only led in singspiration and this is the very first time I am doing this for children but the response you get from the children is a great gift to place in my heart. The smiles and the willingness to respond to you, even if you are a stranger to them! Even though the perspiration and the amount of energy given out from me was overwhelming my tired body, I knew that this was all I could do to give back to God. Using the littlest strength that I have in my body to praise God and teach them all those actions. The greatest thing that God has given me is the great love He has for us and has given to us. Not only does His love come out through us tothe children but also the children's smiles that represent the love,childlike and innocent.

The challenge I faced is mainly the fatigue that was brought over from our missions training week in church. Even though there is enough time to rest every night, but naturally, camps are really tiring. When we first met on Friday, I was already feeling the fatigue. We haven't even gone on the trip, and I was already feeling tired! Through God's empowerment and the many prayers that people had been praying for, God's grace really amazes me. He gave me so much energy to do His work. Another challenge would be the little time we had for preparation. There was the choosing of the songs, the writing of the songs and also helping the others in the areas that they were in charge of. There was just so much to do! Of course, with the help of many people, we managed to finish our jobs and even though we slept really late,we knew that we were prepared. The biggest challenge I faced though, was the swollen foot I had, I accidentally hurt it whiles practicing the skid and it was swollen later in the night. It also hurt a lot and I had it iced and bandaged and after praying really hard, I felt better in the morning! Thanks be to God! I had another problem when we were in Malaysia and that was a terrible headache. So many problems that stopped me or rather prevented me from doing much but I still managed to fulfil what needed to be done. It's really an experience I would not forget. Although the swollen foot could already stop me from making a trip up to Malaysia, I really thank God for the wonders He makes.

I really cannot stop thinking about the time I led the children in the songs. It was really a good experience that I can never forget. Another time would be when we sang the song during the service and the look on the faces of the people. I just want to thank the whole team for being such a wonderful group to be with and work with, even though it was a very very short trip, I believe that I gained a lot from bonding and spending more time with each other. I would rate the trip as a 10, because of the experience I've experienced from God and the fellow friends in this trip I will say that any and every mission trip should be a ten because it is a gift from God to just be able to share His love!

Tiredness

2007-06-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

Hello! I don't sound tired like my title says but I am only physically tired. So mentally I'm awake and actually at the same time I'm feeling tired because the weather rocks, so cooling it makes me want to shut down and sleep. Haha. I'm actually in the marine parade library and I'M PAYING TO USE THE INTERNET!!!AHHHH!!! HAHA. What a waste of money huh. But no choice. Why? Because I had to go through the questions with Joyce and there was no other place that could allow us to use the internetin peace. LOL. I forgot to print the questions of the discussion for saturday so thats why I had to go through the troublesome process of making a library card plus paying for the use of the internet through the credits and mind you that costs money as well!

Can't believe it but I'm trying to use up the credits.HAHA. will continue blogging later when I get home. Haha. BYEEEEE..

First Time

2007-06-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

When was the first time you spoke really nicely to your parents about something you felt but he or she was actually angry at a first comment.
Today's my first, and PRAISE GOD!
Because on usual days I DO NOT even speak nicely to them! Imagine that my parent was actually really really angry and a comment my other parents made and I just said, "Can I say something?" and pointed out whatever was said by that parent, I also agreed to it and that he or she need not take it so offensively. Isn't that just like amazing? I never felt better after making my point, because before that I was gettting offended by the tone of my parent. And I was thinking to myself about this parent not being a good example and carrying out what he or she said, instead he or she just gets mad.
By the way, if you are wondering why I am not saying who is because I don't want to let people think that I am making them think that my parent is bad.
Now I understand why talking nicely stops someone from being able to get too mad. After what I said, my parent stopped sating things in an angry tone and could not say anything further.
What can I do but thank You,
What can I do but give my life to You.
These words come from my heart to God even though it comes from a song.
There's not need for you to get all angry and over yourself when someone passes a comment about you, because all that they are trying to do is to help you improve!
They're your human mirror and when you rebuke them or refuse to listen to them, you would no longer have a good friend or companion that would ever want to be truthful to you. So don't regret when you lose them 'cause you are the one who gave up having such a good friend.
As people always type in their meaningful messages to friends that GOOD FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND!
I need to learn how to accept my bad points too. Everyone does, some do it better than the others but why don't you think that this way you not only improve in your character, you also help your friend in encouraging them that their words are taken seriously. =D
IN THE FAMILY OF GOD, WE ARE ONE BIG FAMILY AND WE NEED TO HELP SPUR EACH OTHER ON! BE IT GOOD OR BAD COMMENTS SAID IN A NICE WAY OR NOT. IT'S ALL FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIHUI!!! MY DEAREST 'OL FRIEND!!!=D Love you loads! This year is our last year, so fast ya? TAKE CARE!!!!!

=)

2007-05-30T16:05:00.000+08:00

I just typed out all the topics that i need to revise for my geography, social studies, math, biology and chemistry. Just all that and its already 7 pages long. Can't believe it because on top of that I still have english and literature to worry about. Goodness me. Haha. Oh well, I can do this right?=) This is for God, for my family, for my future and of course myself. I don't wanna have to go to ITE because that would mean that I haven't done God or myself proud and that I've wasted another year doing secondary 5 when I could've just gone to ITE. I'm in the midst of this, and I'm NOT gonna give up no matter what. I don't wanna feel like I'm such a waste anymore. This is it, the beginning of a tough journey before I can reach my desire. Help me, Lord. You're the only One who can.

Tell me that this is not the time

2007-05-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I always face a problem within myself, what I want to do, I face a inner conflict to make me do it or have a bad thought about it. How bad can this be? I always think that I can do it, but it doesn't seem so. Everyday a new challenge is what I face, its not just about actions, worse, its about my thoughts. So how many people actually face this kinda thing too? I wonder. Just make me feel that I'm the weirdo again sometimes I think in a very different way that can be really negative. Trust in the Lord and lean not on my own understanding. I'll try..=) It's just another one of those days where many many things come to my mind. And just how do i handle them?
We'll make a decision that is of GOD and not ourselves:)

I'm BACK

2007-05-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

This is funny, I haven't been blogging for a really really long time and I doubt anyone really visits my blog anymore. Anyway, today was chinese O levels and I really thank God for answering my prayers and also many other people who have been praying for me and the others taking the paper as well. Even though the last passage was hard the others were not that bad and the compo paper is really a blessing. THANK GOD! Well, now its just back to mugging time and usibng as much of my time as possible to catch up on my work for the other subjects like my biology, chem, geog, lit, ss..apparently those that i didn't do well in especially for geog and ss. So now is the time to catch up!=) I think people will think I'm mad because its the holidays but sadly its the only way to improve and do well. THAT IS TO STUDY. I wonder why I'm so anxious but I know that being anxious is better than not being anxious. RIGHT?=D So today is just such a wonderful day that the Lord has shown His grace and love towards all of us. GLORY TO THE RISEN KING, GLORY TO THE SON!!=D

2006-11-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

FREE HUGS

I want to be a free hug giver..whenever, wherever.
That's because sometimes people just need it.

take a look at this website.its not impossible.
http://www.freehugs.org/

if you need a hug, i hope i can help you with that.=D

*the video just brings tears to your eyes and love to your heart.

2006-11-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

ITS BEEN A LONG LONG TIME..

hello..all i can say is that i'm not really a blog person.I prefer talking and really telling you the details one by one instead of typing it out.
But there are sometimes that a blog does help me release whatever i have inside and i find it hard to say or feel that I can't seem to find anyone to talk to.
i have many many things to say but i guess its better to cut everything short.for now at least..

Many many things have happened to me since i finished my exams had problems had happy moments and sad moments angry moments and many many more times where I can't even tell how I'm feeling.

I've had problems accepting one person or another be it how your family does things or your friends all of these are apart of this. I like to have things my way a lot of times and when I get proved wrong i dislike it, but sometimes you just have got nothing else to say. I'm lost at where I am going but the light just shines and tells me to move on. That's God's work I'm telling you.

Many a times I have wanted to give up on many things. Netball one of them and many things too.
Why? you would ask i guess..because i feel that I do not actually belong there and you would go but you've been there for 4 years already? And all I can say its all me just me.

Everything is tough its just a matter of how you look at it.

Now, all i can say is that I'm still in netball and if i continue to remain I have a long long way more, so much more and that might just make me feel worse..but there's a force pushing me towards working hard for everything though its tough. I have a calling I feel that comes from God that tells me all these I have given to you, just do it for me and put your best in it.

I've felt tired so many times but that strength just carries me through and God just tells me..push on.
I feel like I am made to go on missions with a heart that said when you are old enough and when you know that I want you to go then go. How easy would it be for you to let go of everything?

Looking at how i had lived my life since secondary one and how loose i have been with God but that strength has been with me and it just remains, waiting for me to use it.

I hope that you do feel what I'm trying to say. If you are a non-christian, yet to say yes to God and Jesus then i guess you might ask where does that energy come from within? Or how come i never felt it? I guess you need to start asking many many more questions to find out huh? maybe your christian friend can help or maybe you just need to utter a pray to God.

If you are a christian then i hope you're not like me, that you use the strength given to you wisely and not look as if you're half dead but you're still half alive and still able to live.=D

this is my life that i find so hard to understand but yet a force in me from God just pushes me to go on though i don't understand.I PRESS ON TOWARDS THE GOAL THAT GOD HAS SET FOR ME. Hopefully i can keep this goal alive and press on towards a Christ-like life.

2006-07-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

HEY THERE HO THERE HOW DO YOU DO!EVAN SAYS HI
TO ALL OF YOU!!
haha.well..today was tiring.this week was bad.BUT, I'M GLAD

I HAVE FRIENDS TO COMFORT ME AND ENCOURAGE ME
through these tough times.THANK YOU ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS!!=D
I THANK GOD REALLY

FOR HELPING ME A LOT TOO BY SENDING ME ALL

THESE FRIENDS THAT HELP ME AND ALSO FOR MY

FAMILY IN BEING SO POSITIVE!

don't really

wanna elaborate further about what happen and i shall look forward to my soooo fast

upcoming prelims and everything!!ahhh!!!hahaha.okay lah.shall stop here.

ASHLEY: THANKS LIL SIS!!YOU TAKE CARE TOO AND DON'T PLAY TOO MUCH STUDY FOR YOUR EXAMS AND BE WELL PREPARED YA?DON'T BE LIKE ME!!haha

2006-07-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!well.its been awhile since i've updated.really lazy i don't know why though i have loads of time on the comp but i just don't seem to blog that often and its normal i think?haha.first of all, this week has began for me with a seriously mad time table that can kill anyone in my class.Monday was good 'cause there were so many breaks and so much time for us to relax so that we're not stressed up with so many things in our minds.But guess what, tuesday onwards the time table is madnessly mad 'cause its lessons back to back with teachers that tend to talk so much and always see us so sleepy 'cause our brains are so exhausted.just past our first few lessons and we can't take it already.there wasn't a sinlge long break for us in between lessons and our recess was so early that but 10am we were all hungry again.But we couldn't go buy any food 'cause of our lessons.Can't wait for them to change the stupid time table that makes our minds burst man.Its like non-stop action of minds that the mind motor starts to slow down and you end up sleeping instead of listening.all right man.I thank God for giving me the honour of being able to listen to the many whom i really want to hear from that even though tough times do come our way we still have friends to listen and help us with their own experiences.But isn't it weird how friendships for many years could just be spoiled because you aren't truthful with one another?Sad isn't it.Well..it is difficult sometimes to share how you always feel but its better to have a truthful friendship than to have a friendship that hides things from one another don't you think?You may have a clique but honestly sometimes you don't feel that you don't belong there and a clique sometims does block us out from the rest don't you think?well.that's what i think and i feel that at times you may feel left out for not having a clique 'cause the rest is in their own clique and you have no fixed group?Its okay i feel 'cause this should not affect us from being everyone's friend.A close friend for me is enough and i feel that its always better to have everyone as a friend.

God wants us to surrender to Him everything but sometimes i just wonder how?but i think all that he's given is all that we must return everyday and not hold anything from Him.bend the I to form a C..that is Christ.and isn't that difficult? AND YES WITH GOD WE CAN!!agree??=D

Life is tough and we face it everyday.=)
GOD LOVES YOU!!

2006-06-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

Its been quite a good holiday i must say.Even though i had a few rough times but its so much better than going to school.After youth camp and church camp in which both were refreshing and FUNNN!!hahaha.BOY, did i enjoy myself and building on all our friendships and getting all our paths with God right!I'm really glad that i have church friends to uphold me when i go through my tough times, even the adults too=)I really thank God today.And sometimes i do wonder if my dad does have pms though he's a guy.'cause to me he seems like a girl?he's always getting irritated with the small things and he's ever so rigid with things.Oh well..enough about him.God will help me out with him la.hahaha.well..now that school has begun its gonna be hard for me to do anything thats not out of studying from next wednesday onwards.I LOVE GOD!!yeah!!AND THE KIAS IN CHURCH AT KPC TOO!!and my very few buddies in school that i have to cling on to.though we haven't talked in such a long time i do hope everything and i mean everything improves in school.AMEN!hahaha.okay gtg do my homework again!!yeah man!!BYEEE!!!

2006-06-09T14:02:00.000+08:00

REMEMBER THESE FEW DAYS ALWAYS
sunday 4th of june
I must say sunday was really how i felt soooooo busy that i couldn't think properly. First, i had worship prac at 8 before worship and then had youth, then had service, then had church camp briefing, then had church camp meeting because marianne wasn't around i had to take over her as i became her asst. then shaun and i didn't stay for the whole meeting and went for YLTCamp and then from there on we were with the youth and my gosh was i bushed by then. When shaun and i entered the audi, all were quiet and they were told to write down their goal so shaun and i joined them and went on with the programme. then we had this team bonding game that was called the monsters finger i think something like that.then we had to get the float out of the 2 metre plus pole without touching it.and boy was it tough.only managed to get it out on the fourth try.haha.then was the first teaching and we had night activities.and boy was that fun and painful for me.we were blindfolded and then we were taken by one leader and me and shaun were together and we had to follow ron's voice around and he made us stand in front of the dog and get barked at.haha.then we were brought back to church and then we had to follow the leaders voice and run.and i had terrence and i ran into chris' car la.pain lor.funny also la.hahaha.then after that we followed each other and had to walk along with the group and see who we are really supposed to follow.then kim kept asking who to follow.and then we alked round and round with ron and then decided to follow joshua.then went through some 'obstacles' and then sat and waited for the rest to come back and then went on and sat down and waited for our turn to do the trust fall..at first was like we didn't know what we were supposed to do..then fall..and now we knew.hahaha.okay that was about it.SLEEP.
monday 5th of june
then we had breakfast QT then another lesson and then we had another game that was to go to ppl's house to do something and then to have the food done when we get back to church and boy was the walking long and tiring.haha.then after that ate the food that we made and then had a funny time sharing out lame and out of point visions and was that stupid lah..KPCYPP(katong presbyterian church youth political party) and KPYC (KATONG PRESBYTERIAN YOUTH CHURCH)hahahahahaa..and watched the gospel of judas documentry.boy was it stupid all predictions only la..okay okay.better speed up on this long post..
tuesday 6th of june
haha.okay then the same things in the morining and then had the continuation of the gospel of judas thingy.then we had to do surveys at bedok interchange and then had to do a presentation and then had worship prac for omega night and boy was the worship powerpacked all done by shaun and of course the band then had the wonderful omega night and had a time of commitment to make to God to give our lives fully to God and be able to give everything up for Him. then was that a difficult time for me.all my sins and all that guilt just filled up and made my head just swell up so big that i just couldn't tell my self to give it up and let it all go cause i felt so unworthy so useless and my inability to serve God and boy was i giving all the water in my body out from my eyes like a water fall.and i just kept harping on the sins and guilt i have.and realised i found it SOOOO hard to commit myself..then i spoke to roy cuz he knows and then he told me to commit myself to god on my own w/o him helping me and i just tried and began crying so so so hard and i just kept screaming in my heart asking God to that away the weight in my body it was like a huge rock thrown onto my bod and i felt so much pain.and as roy continued praying the weight just got lighter and lighter and i felt so so much better that i felt so free and so happy and after the prayer i could keep laughing and lose all the tight feelings that felt as if i was a prisoner locked up in a cell and i got so happy i couldn't stop laughing and as mu church friends call my laughing 'evangelitis'.hahaha.we went for supper and then stayed up the rest of the night playing bridge and tai dee.so fun and its...
wednesday 7th of june
and then had to practice for worship even though there were so little ppl and i just shared my experience the night before and during QT i fell asleep and even dropped my bible la..so PAISEH..haha.then i went home and just slept like siao.hahaha.

AND KIM WANTS ME TO SAY THAT I LOVE HERnot..LOL.JOKING LA

2006-06-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

ITS JUST ANOTHER DAY
man was yesterday both good and bad for me.it was on one side fun and on the other hand sad.gosh was i miserable things just had to get worse yesterday.how?well..friends always seem to be my barrier.forget it.i leave it all up to GOD and i believe HE'LL lead all the way for the rest of the years that i have to face these friends though its only 1 and a half years more.may i hope that my friendship with all the others not be forgotten after that day and i pray i just pray.I HAD FUN ALSO THOUGH I HAD ALL THESE PROBLEMS!!!i had class outing and boy was it OKAY.thought it was gonna be bad bad bad..GOSH..hahaha.we went to marina south to fly kite and had steamboat dinner.was with threeseepoo's clique all the way man.and we ran like crazy pigs just to get the dumb kite flying be we couldn't.haha.then we like pigs keep eating?ate LUNCH at 3 and then ate DINNER at 5.30??!!how piggish can we get?or rather our teacher who made the decisions?LOL.went to the arcade later on and then we were like stuck at the instruments machine?the drums and the guitar.hahaha.fun la.then headed home.but i waited for my dada to come and pick me up and then i reeked of steamboat which flooded the car!!so fun..hahaha..so tired la.

TODAY
today i woke up early.i just can't seem to wake up late lor.like always early?hmmm..had worship prac in the afternoon and then had to wait for my mama then go to parkway together and during the wait WOW did many things happen.haha.i brought my chinese homework to do and was waiting at the same time and justin and shaun were like still in church jammin and i was like doing my work and all of a sudden justin sang my name?haha.retarded kias..then before that just was playing the keyboard and was like trying to use the sound effects to be funny lah..but it really WAS FUNNY!!!hahaha.okay then they jam jam jam..after that watched some videos on shaun's laptop and saw the previous videos of the youth playing with helium and talking funnily la!!SO FUNNY!!hahaha.man should upload on faith factor to let ppl see..super duper funny lor.hahahaha..

suprisingly i can type so much today and make thje descriptions so apt lor.hahaha.okay okay time to go to bed and get ready for the camp beginning tmr!!!=D
TOODLELOOS!!!!

2006-05-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS BLOG DAY.haha.i must set a day thati blog so that i'll keep my blog alive.haha.
well.i can't say much here cuz i don't know who IS and ISN'T viewing my blog.
mmm..life's been crazy man.exams exams and MORE EXAMS.irritating i tell you.its been siao for me cuz papers in which i studied really hard for didn't come out and papers i didn't really study for were freaking easy but i can't score.IRRITATING RIGHT??!!haywire i tell you man..kk..shall stop for today..cont another day..BYEE!!

2006-05-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

hello.i haven't been blogging okay thats already so obvious.haha.well.many things going on for me but my life just seems like a everyday routine unless something tunes it.hahaha.alright.for the past few day i've been trying to get my study gear working real hard but its not going very well.but that can be improved.next would be church.every sunday is the same to me now.just helping out becomes so normal.haha.hmmm..sometimes in the week something would pop up like a pop up ad when you're using the internet and just brighten up your day or just make it so much duller.like tuesday my whole class had to stay back in school all because of our art teacher to complete our mid-year exams stuff and our course work for the mid-year when i actually could have gone home to take a good rest.how sian right?and we stayed back for more than 3 hours to do layouts and brainstorming and how fun can it be to just draw and think and draw and crack your brain what you wanna do.and have to score too.IRRITATING RIGHT??!!alright enough of that.so now i have sometime to do all my work and i seriously hate to stare at books non-stop.but what to do right??hmmm..PRAY FOR ME THAT I'LL BE ABLE TO KNOW WHAT I REALLY NEED TO DO NOW.

itsbeengreatjustforthattimebutnowi'vemovedon.notlookingbackatyouanymore.i'mlookingtomyfuturenow.=)

2006-04-18T18:42:00.000+08:00

LALALA!!! Today was good.REALLY. Actually only average lah.HAHA! well.We had netball cell after school today and it was GOOD!! haha. WHAT ELSE AH???hahaha...it was like raining so we stayed back in school and studied!!WOOHOO!!so fun RIGHT??!! LOL. Did half of my maths homework with much difficulty and yeah man at least i studied..LATER ON...i have to study again!!! hmmm..overall today was good la.**HOPE I DO WELL FOR MY LIT TEST!!!**DEAR GOD PLS BLESS ME!!!!

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2006-04-18T18:40:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

After a long while! Its been awhile man! Didn't have to mood to blog. Haha. Let me give a highlight on everything that has happened in topics! LOL.

NetballX))
well, as for netball, we're out of the competition already and it's been quite a stressful time! But, now that there's no more netball, we're gonna be having normal training! And i sure hope i can get my studies going together with netball in hand that i hope will be good for me.YUP!

School X))
I changed my seat in class!! And guess what, its worse than before!! ARGH!! I have to sit at the side where i have to look past so many heads than before because I shifted one seat in from my usual place which means I'm sitting beside the back door!!! It's really irritating and i hope my partner will start waking up during lessons so that i can stay awake too?!

CHURCH X))
Church is fine i guess. Haha. Nothing much! OHHHH!!! good friday was GREAT!!! Like got to meet quite a few EP CAMP FRIENDS!!!!!AHHHHH!!! HAHA! Really mad when i saw them la. ANDREW WONG JJ!!!! LOL!!! Hysterical for me man. My jaw just dropped when i saw him. LIKE HOW LONG HAVE WE NOT MET?! haha! MY GOSH. I REALLY WANT ANOTHER EP CAMP THIS YEAR!!!!! AND GERMS!! Haven't met you!!! And I'm waiting IMPATIENTLY TO HAVE A GET TOGETHER WITH ALL THE EP PPL!!! haha.okay too much Caps already. lol. shall relax. HAHA.

man thats the update for now i think.HAHA.
I'm going mad so i better stop that.HAHA.
BYE!!!HAHA.

2006-03-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

alright...so things are a little better and i'm suprised at someone for whatever was told to me by the person.oh well.i'm glad though.=)

so desiree has passed on a disease that has to be done which actually is quite irritating.LOL.
so here goes.

the perfect guy must...:

1. Have a smile that can make me feel better
2. Accepts me for who i am and doesn't try to change me
3. Understand my need for personal space
4. IS GOD'S CHILD
5. BE SPORTY
6. Makes me feel happy with.
7. Be able to engage with me in a conversation that can last so long and be able to talk about anything under the sun.
8. I'd like someone who is good looking but i guess sometimes looks don't count.HAHA.

okay, so i decided not to carry on.cuz i realised i have not many ppl to pass it on to.hahaha.
shall end here for today.=)

2006-03-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

I feel so affected..like though things are better and all but how to even get rid of the pain i'm feeling.it's just so difficult.and i forgive her cuz i know how she's like but how to let go of whatever happened when people say so?just that she thinks that i am commanding ppl and i believe that yes i do it sometimes too much and all la.but i was trying so hard to change today and told myself not to say too much and all la.but what happened really struck me like as if i really did sound that way today.i don't want to think that but i think now things are gonna be tough for me and i really need God's strength and power to help me through.i wonder just how to handle all these and not let it all affect me at the same time.I have got to let myself be controlled and not let myself say so much.I WONDER WHY IN CHURCH I DON'T FACE SO MUCH AS I DO IN SCHOOL.

i really need all the help form God as i can get..How do i get over all these things and to have a different view from others than to get a response that hurts so much.

oh Lord my God, be my divine help.

2006-03-25T11:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just wonder why some parents just think that they're right all the time and when nag at something they themselves do not even do and ask us to do it?!how come they can joke and we must joke with them but when we kids joke with them they take it so seriously and scold us for it?

These few things have just been floating around my mind. I want to ask but what for?leaving it there would hurt the relationship but isn't it telling them gonna make them scold me and in turn the relationship still gets worse?

I don't bother about all these anymore till it happens again and i just start asking myself all these qusetions that i myself cannot answer.

Alright, thats enough about all these small unhappy things and rewind back to last week with all the activites and fun i had from the dragon boating and little bit of free time to myself.

Dragon boating was so fun, and i don't only mean the part on dragon boating but also the captains ball and frisbee games we had before the boating. And my goodness my team rocks!HAHA!we won the first 2 captains ball matches first against only one group and later against every other group!so later the winner had to play with the winner in ultimate frisbee and my team won again!haha.

We went out together as a group for lunch and then headed back to meet the other groups for dragon boating!my group then combined with marianne(buttie!!) and her group in the same dragon boat and headed out together.buttie and i then sat in the front and had the keep the pace making us super tired!haha.then soon later we could coordinate and then competeted with the others in the other boat and lost the first race but won the second with a two-boat length lead!SO FUN!HAHA!

After the event all of us went for our shower and then saw our new tan.haha.the difference was huge and headed to suntec to eat.after that we went to the arcade to have some fun and headed home.

fast-forward to today!!
Today is gonna be a long day and presently i just ate my lunch and ate some fruits!SO FULL!!LOL!!then soon later i'm gonna be heading to church to have a meeting and worship practice and youth leaders training and then dinner and a movie screening till late tonight!haha.A long programme man!HAHAS!alright i shall end here today and i do hope i have a fun day ahead later though there is so much to do!=D

`evann
12.12pm

2006-03-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

hellos to all!and welcome to evan's boring life!!
haha.have to admit that i'm high i didn't eat drugs for your information.haha.alright.so today was average.suprisingly chinese lesson was making many ppl in my class atart to fall asleep.so sorry to my chinese teacher man.it just can't be helped.inevitable.alright so today there was this prank on this girl in my class la.then her 'good friend' wanted to lock her out of the class and they decided to lock the door.so i wanted to go out of class and just nice that girl came back and one of the girls rushed to lock the door and pushed it so that she could not open it.then i was like standing so near the door cuz i wanted to go out of the class and so irritatingly i didn't open the door because i didn't want to get into trouble.then that girl was like cursing and swearing outside the door and someone in the end opened it.then that girl scolded me la.like saying why didn't i open the door for her and my goodness she didn't accept my explaination and went around complaining like mad.oh well..can't really be bothered with her.my day was okay today like not bad.

had time to talk with my good buddy and being able to hang out the whole day with her as in for the whole day la.yeah.so tomorrow is gonna be fun i hope..haha.well.netball has just became such a important part of me that don't want to let go of anymore.well, i've gotta start setting my priorities right and make studies become a very important part of me so i hope that God would just give me the will and want to learn more and have a heart to revise all my work so that i don't need to worry too much.yeah man.EVAN IS GONNA WORK HARD!!!=)

Hungry, I come to you
for I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know
Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, Your all this heart is living for

Broken i come to You
for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but i know You touch
restores my life
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

2006-03-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just wonder if my parents would ever want to listen to my point of view and not always do it their way and not think about our point of view as nonsense.how about trying to sit them down one fine day and tell them, 'today is my turn to speak this is about MY point of view and not yours.so just listen to me and not say anything unless i finish or you have got a REALLY REALLY good arguement and if i accept it.' how would that turn out?if they really listen?I would really find it a miracle.BUT even if they listen you never know if they are really taking it in.of if not they're just like us when they nag.RIGHT EAR IN AND LEFT EAR OUT.just got nagged at and it was more like a scolding and my dad was like scolding me because i didn't reply?!so he means when i get scolded i have to answer?!what kind of lame reasoning is that.okay.enough of that.i really feel like trying that method though.

okay.i'm not in the right mode of making my decision.to let go or not to let go?that is the question.i don't feel like waiting but i want to.contradicting?yeah sure.not knowing what i should do but guess what should be more important is all the responsibilities i have in my hand.

i have heats on tomorrow for my 200m event and 4 by 100m event in which most of the runners are not wanting to run and that totally ruins more things for me being the house captain and having to go and find those people personally giving them a huge scolding on their not turning up that caused the house to lose points and lag behind.okay so i've gotta start keeping my cool and i do hope veryone turns up tomorrow for the novelty event and be enthusiastic about it and help to gain all the lost points of irresponsible acts of people who didn't turn up for their event.THE PRESSURE IS ON!!

2006-03-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm.how am i gonna make it.cuz i keep thinking i can just die.it's like repeated thinking about the same thing again and again.it's irritating especially if its someone that you like.and guess what i just said something to someone just yesterday and i think i shouldn't have done that because its just so wrong.i think no one would understand what i'm typing here unless i told you about it.so yeah.

i've been having bad days since yesterday.i really hate dealing with people who are so irresponsible so as to not inform anyone that they cannot go for the heats.really hope all these people know that at least be responsible and not be so irritating having to make me or anyone to find out who they are and give them a ring.i don't think i need to do that.argh.so pissed.okay had enough.
good night.

2006-02-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

just back to relive the days of blogging though it takes me time to update but i don't mind my trying and though last year has been rough like having some bad comments on my blog i shall not put a tag board.haha.well, let me just share how life has been for me.its busy and everyday is a long day for me like as if its never ending.i had netball going on like the season.then i had took up the role of being a house captain(that would be for the colour house if you don't know.)then i had a lot of homework and all piled on top of me and all the days of not being able to stay awake in class and missing out on a lot.yeah.

the difficulty of concentrating on my school work was tremendous and the huge pressure on the netball team to make an achievement.the season was tough and it took a lot of time and energy.at some point there was church stuff too.but it wasn't that bad.

now that the netball season is over its much easier for me to concentrate but i still can't seem to set my priorities right.been thinking a lot about all that i need to catch up on and number one was to start doing my QT again and stop slacking off my time of talking to God.number two was to concentrate on my studies and number three was my house stuff and fourth was church.i have many things in hand that i had to know what i was doing and to do it well.its stressful as ppl should know.i guess.

tommorow is just gonna be another busy day for me cuz i've gotta sing for youth then for service and then have another worship prac in the afternoon for next weeks youth.so many things man.can't even go for my bible study.hai.but i shall go do it later.can read more of the bible and yeah.could probably learn something on my own.yeah.all the best to me.i think i can become super singer woman already.haha.alright i shall stop here.BYE!!